Dear You, wherever you are


Today  from the distance I saw you...
and, though you were near
I felt alone and empty..
then I realized
that I miss you..
I miss how happy I was only to see you
I miss the way you smiled,
the way you stared at me..
I miss how I missed you
when you're gone
I miss the way you made me feel..
I miss the way you used to be
What happened to you?
or, what happened to me?
what actually happened to us?


Love,

Me, wherever I might be

My kind of perfect

(performed by David Archuleta)
 
I was thinking about ya  
I drew a little picture  
But some things you can't put on paper
Like it like shooting stars? 
I write songs on guitar 
Got more things to do than stare at a mirror
 
I know, I know, she's gotta be out there, out there 
I know I know she's gotta be
Maybe I'm wrong 
Maybe I'm right 
Maybe I just let you walk by  
What can I say?
Maybe I've known you all my life  

Is she the one? 
Is it today? 
Will I turn the corner  
See my future in a beautiful face, maybe
 
She's anything but typical 
A sweet surprise 
No matter what, she's looking at the bright side
It's gonna be worth it 
'Cause that's what love is 
I'll keep searching for my kind of perfect
 
I know, I know, she's gotta be out there, out there I know, 
I know, she's gotta be
Maybe I'm wrong  
Maybe I'm right 
Maybe I just let you walk by 
What can I say?
Maybe I've known you all my life 

Is she the one? Is it today? 
Will I turn the corner  
See my future in a beautiful face, maybe
 
They say give it time  
Give it time, and it will fall in line 
But I keep wondering how and when  
And why I haven't met you
 
But maybe I'm wrong 
Maybe I'm right  
Is she the one? 
Is it today?  
Will I turn the corner 
See my future in a beautiful face, maybe
 
Maybe I'm wrong 
 Maybe I'm right 
Maybe I just let you walk by 
What can I say?
Maybe I've known you all my life 
Is she the one? Is it today? 
Will I turn the corner  
See my future in a beautiful face, maybe
I'll keep searching for my kind of perfect


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Sometimes I envy my friends who seem to have got their 'soul mates'. And for me, it seems so hard to find him. Why haven't I met him yet?

People may say I am picky. 
Yes, I am.
But it's because I don't want to treat relationship as a game. I want to have a serious relationship. It is not about the status of being 'in a relationship'. I am totally not proud of it. What is it for if I am unhappy, and it doesn't last forever?

What is he like?
I just wonder if, right now, he is also thinking of me...
I hope I will meet him soon.
:)

Hero

(performed by Mariah Carey)

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are

There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
And you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold

You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Oh ho, Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yea

Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time, you find the way, hey

Then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Memang
aku tidak pernah benar dihadapanmu
tak peduli apapun yang kulakukan
kau bilang sayang padaku
melebihi apapun didunia ini
tapi kau bohong
ada seseorang
yang jauh lebih kau sayangi
mungkin selama ini
apa yang aku pikirkan memang benar
mungkin aku memang bukan milikmu
aku hanyalah sebuah pelarian
atas kekecewaanmu padanya
kau adalah miliknya
tidakkah kau sadar
bahwa ia tak sanggup menyayangimu?
mengapa kau masih berharap padanya
yang menganggapmu tiada
sementara aku yang berharap padamu
kauanggap tiada
mengapa kau tidak pernah
memberikan sedikit saja
secercah senyumanmu padaku
karena aku berusaha
selalu mencoba
membuatmu bahagia
meski aku tak sempurna
dan pada akhirnya
selalu saja
aku yang menangis

Pathetique Sonata, 3rd movement

The music I was playing is the beginning part of Pathetique Sonata (3rd movement), composed by Ludwig van Beethoven. Pathetique means sadness or sorrow.
The question is: should I also play it with a sad heart?
If so, then I'd like to dedicate this music to you, who somehow have made myself pathetic...

Hate On Me

Just go ahead and hate on me
hate on me
with the worst you have
does it bring you sore
aching down the core
Hate on me
til it hurts no more

Whatever you do
making me stronger
the more the anger
I am a moment wiser
it does get me eager
saying farewell to you

Just go ahead and hate on me
are you that fragile
hate on me
and with one teary smile
I leave for thousand mile