I've always believed that everything happens for a reason....
but somehow I start to doubt it. I begin to think to myself, "Did I make the wrong decision, eventhough it was my heart that lead me?
I know it wasn't easy to bear...however I've promised to myself that I am going to learn through the decision and make it a valuable lesson.
But isn't it too much for me? Should I let go now?
The most miserable thing is that I probably have no significant role to make changes...Now I know that I mean NOTHING...
At first, I believe, although I know the decision I make will end up in tears, at least I hope to be able to make things better...
but everything seems to make me hurt more and more....
I may say that I am alright, I am good, I am perfectly fine, with that typical smile on my face...
Actually when I say so, I am NOT OKAY......Inside my heart I am crying, unable to hold the pain any longer...I'm sick of faking!


Let's just wait and see.......

"LOVE"

is only a word, which a lot of people can’t face. Though they know that they’ve fallen in love, they still think of “What if.....” or “but.....”. They keep themselves away from love for certainty and comfort so they decide to use their head to choose, not their heart.

Then, what do I do?

Unlike them, I decided not to get rid of it. People often ask, “Why him?” and I’ll answer, “I just follow what my heart says...” To be honest, if I look forward, I can’t promise anything to him.....I don’t know what awaits us in the future. However, despite that uncertainty, I said to myself “Isn’t love sincere? Isn’t love unconditional?” I don’t want “but’s” or “what if’s”. I just want to give my best to him and see him happy.

I am ready to love him, but I am also ready to lose him if this love doesn’t belong to us...because I know love needs sacrifice; love isn’t selfish. Through this, I want to learn to love someone with all my heart...

I love him, from the beginning until the end....