I've always believed that everything happens for a reason....
but somehow I start to doubt it. I begin to think to myself, "Did I make the wrong decision, eventhough it was my heart that lead me?
I know it wasn't easy to bear...however I've promised to myself that I am going to learn through the decision and make it a valuable lesson.
But isn't it too much for me? Should I let go now?
The most miserable thing is that I probably have no significant role to make changes...Now I know that I mean NOTHING...
At first, I believe, although I know the decision I make will end up in tears, at least I hope to be able to make things better...
but everything seems to make me hurt more and more....
I may say that I am alright, I am good, I am perfectly fine, with that typical smile on my face...
Actually when I say so, I am NOT OKAY......Inside my heart I am crying, unable to hold the pain any longer...I'm sick of faking!


Let's just wait and see.......