Only Hope

This year is going to end soon. A lot of things happened to me throughout this year. Laughter and tears seemed to surround my days. Mostly, I spent this year with no significant changes. I am still like me a year ago. Age is what makes me different. I’m getting older but I’m not sure if I’m getting more mature. Yes, I learned a lot from failure and rejections, but still I keep making the same mistakes. I am so childish and I often do everything without thinking the consequences.

2010 to 2011. I wonder what will happen to me. Actually, I don’t want a lot for next year. Last year, I made a lot of resolutions but I did NONE of them. From that, I learned that being overly ambitious will only make your life more stressful and you won’t have that chance to do everything well. We have to realize that we have limited ability; we’re not perfect. If we push too hard on ourselves, it won’t work. So, my resolution for next year is just to focus on what I am doing with full of dedication and determination.

My fear is that next year I’ll disappoint people whom I care about. I don’t want to make them sad. Perhaps I might not be able to keep them all happy; it’s just like the saying ‘Please all then you please none’. If I try to do all they want, it’s impossible. I know, it is a DECISION I have to make. Whenever it comes to decision, I become doubtful and I don’t know which to follow; head or heart. Until now, it complicates me so much that I can barely calm myself. I’m still waiting for His sign to help me choose!

So it’s only hope, hope, and hope...I want to keep hoping for the best...Next year, I’m looking forward to more joy and happiness...God, wash away all the tears please!