I wish....

I often think to myself, "Why am I different from others?"
I feel like a bird in a cage, longing to be free but not able to escape.
For all these times, my parents have spoiled me a lot. I am surrounded with a lot of things they give. I was happy and I felt so lucky because I knew there were lots of friends who were much unluckier than me. But as the time went by, I started to feel so useless...
I tried to change but it's so hard. They often said that I was rebellious and my behavior was not like those of my cousins who "made their parents proud"...
On the other side, I feel guilty because I often lie to them for everything I do. There were many reasons that I said to make them let me do what I want to do. But still, they often lecture me...
Now, I feel so bad for lying a lot to my parents...
I just want to say, "Mom, Dad, I'm not your LITTLE daughter anymore...Please let me be free..."