Expectation kills

There is a saying that one should not love so much and hope so much because that "too much" will hurt so much. It just happened to me, today, in a blink of my eye. This has proven that only few words coming from certain people can change a sincere smile on your face into the bitter one. Of course, you couldn't counter-attack what was given to you since you are basically much powerless.

What can hurt more than the fact that you have to choose between what you love and what you need? There's no way you have both. And you have to make your decision quickly or you will end up with nothing. Talking to my family wouldn't work, for another endless speech is all I would get. I talked to myself and it took forever to decide what is "righter" and what is "wronger."

In the end, I have nobody to talk to, and it'd be overwhelming to even think about a shoulder to cry on. I am getting hopeless and sick of it--just like sentimental soapy dramas my parents watch nightly on TV. Who'd genuinely care for me, an ugly, short, silly girl anyway? I should grow up and leave a happy-ever-after ending I have been dreaming.

This is a real life, not a fairy tale.
Life is just too rough to put too much expectation on it.