I am not happy with falling, the situation in which I throw myself into a big hole with full consciousness. This has gotten myself to the weakest side of me. I can't keep my head up to even take a glance of the future. Imagining the two of us together is like trying to dissolve the oil into the water; it is not going to work.
Day by day, I keep falling with my eyes closed -- basically I think I've blinded myself. I wonder where I am heading to. This makes me feel like a traitor but somehow it feels right..and I like it. The blurry shadow ahead leaves me longing to keep going until things are crystal clear. I only wish to find out if everything is going to worth the pain. It is true, for no matter what I do, I will be in pain. There is no painless falling anyway. What if I fall in another delusion? Or worse, what if I fall in love? Can I fall out of it?
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