Time separates, time unites, time hurts, and time heals. It's all about time. Like what I said, time is our best friend and worst enemy. I once blamed time for everything but now I am trying to make peace with time. My days may have been hellish lately, but, right now, I can be much calmer than before. Whatever has happened in my life must bring its own lessons to make me wiser.
I learned that everything has its own price. In life, one must feel sad in order to understand what happiness is. One must hold on to know whether it is better to let go...because when the expectations are too high, disappointment is always the worst punishment. One must try hard enough to achieve things; avoiding problems is like waiting for atomic bomb to explode. One must think carefully first before saying something, otherwise it is just unbelievable nonsense. And, maybe, pain is important so that someone can be grateful for whatever remains. Also, it is better to love yourself first before you try to love others; don't swim across the ocean for ones who don't even want to jump a puddle for you.
I think that my rainy season will and must meet its end soon. I know that when I look back, I will be torn into pieces for remembering everything that seems too beautiful to leave behind. The past may try to destroy me but I realize that I need to go ahead and learn that what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. I am glad that now I no longer keep thinking of unnecessary things or people who don't really deserve it. I don't want to be stuck in one static point, where I hallucinate and fantasize that I can freeze the time, along with my own version of happiness, which turns out to be toxic.
Whether it is good or bad,who knows? Cause nothing lasts forever.
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