For my precious

I love you so much but your words months ago still linger in my mind... When you said to me that I would not succeed in "that subject", my heart was wounded deeply.  At that time, I was feeling down and all I needed was encouraging and motivating words, not depressing anger that I turned out to get. Perhaps you didn't realize that. You can't understand me..perhaps I am too strange for you. Or you do have very high expectations, which I cannot fulfill. What can I do, anyway? The world always revolves around you, and  you are the only side of  your coin.
Your words, THOSE words still echo everywhere, to my ear, in my head especially when you keep saying to me how bad I am or when you keep making me fall.  Now I know that you are not hesitant at all to hit me with the worst that you have.
Perhaps the best decision is to stand on my feet and start my own life. I cannot live beneath your wings anymore... I am just not good enough for you. Maybe I will never be good enough for you.
You are one of the most precious persons in the world for me.  
I am only an ordinary person with my own flaws and limitations. I am sorry for that.
What I am certain of is that I will always love and respect you.
Thank you for making me realize that I need to finish my journey here quickly and fly away.


Love,


Me

Surprise

It's very surprising when I looked through my old diary or this blog entries. After reading some, I was really shocked; I couldn't believe that I was a depressed and immature person. Now I can only laugh and be embarrassed of myself. I can't believe that I wrote all the stupid stuff!
However, I can see that I have grown a lot and I don't act that way anymore.
Well, I can delete what I write in this blog but I can't just get rid of what I have in my diary.
So, I'll just let it be a good way to reflect myself for whatever I have done.

Look back, smile, and step forward

"Last Christmas" I gave you my heart
but "the very next day" you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special :)

Hot Chocolate

In this rainy season, especially, at the end of the year, it feels so good to drink a cup of hot chocolate..It keeps you warm and relaxed.
You can just mix powdered chocolate, milk, and sugar together with hot water, and it's done.
But for me it's not done yet. I have a secret recipe.
Besides adding sugar and milk to my chocolate, I like to add some salt in it. Salt. Yes, salt. Sounds weird, doesn't it? But it's true.
Salt makes the chocolate taste smoother and more delicious.
It doesn't taste salty at all (although I am a big fan of salty food). It just enhances the flavour. You don't believe it?
Well, just try it first and taste how it is :)

Anyway, Happy New Year :D

a promise (un)kept

One of the best feelings in the world 
is when you meet him again
and you feel absolutely nothing: no hurt, no memories, no tears. 
It is when you realize that you have MOVED ON....


I'm letting you go,
 :)

29.11.12