Regret always comes when everything is too late.

Don't you think so?
Alright, maybe I regret what I did. I regret my decision. I regret everything. It drives me crazy!!
Basically, I'm just not ready but I have to keep pretending that I am. Why am I too weak at heart? Why am I too afraid to hurt anyone else?
Now that it is too late, I am the one who will get hurt, for sure. I can only wait and see what's gonna happen next.

Jolene

(by Dolly Parton)

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can
Your beauty is beyond compare
With flaming locks of auburn hair
With ivory skin and eyes of emerald green
Your smile is like a breath of spring
Your voice is soft like summer rain
And I cannot compete with you, Jolene

He talks about you in his sleep
There's nothing I can do to keep
from crying when he calls your name, Jolene

And I can easily understand
How you could easily take my man
But you don't know what he means to me, Jolene

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can

You could have your choice of men
But I could never love again
Hes the only one for me, Jolene

I had to have this talk with you
My happiness depends on you
And whatever you decide to do, Jolene

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Im begging of you please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him even though you can
Jolene, Jolene

So is that IT????

Suddenly I came to a realization that you aren't seeing me as I am; I may only be the shadow of your unfulfilled wish--how pathetic!
What am I supposed to believe? When the words you say have withered, what are you going to do?

I've always believed that everything happens for a reason....
but somehow I start to doubt it. I begin to think to myself, "Did I make the wrong decision, eventhough it was my heart that lead me?
I know it wasn't easy to bear...however I've promised to myself that I am going to learn through the decision and make it a valuable lesson.
But isn't it too much for me? Should I let go now?
The most miserable thing is that I probably have no significant role to make changes...Now I know that I mean NOTHING...
At first, I believe, although I know the decision I make will end up in tears, at least I hope to be able to make things better...
but everything seems to make me hurt more and more....
I may say that I am alright, I am good, I am perfectly fine, with that typical smile on my face...
Actually when I say so, I am NOT OKAY......Inside my heart I am crying, unable to hold the pain any longer...I'm sick of faking!


Let's just wait and see.......

"LOVE"

is only a word, which a lot of people can’t face. Though they know that they’ve fallen in love, they still think of “What if.....” or “but.....”. They keep themselves away from love for certainty and comfort so they decide to use their head to choose, not their heart.

Then, what do I do?

Unlike them, I decided not to get rid of it. People often ask, “Why him?” and I’ll answer, “I just follow what my heart says...” To be honest, if I look forward, I can’t promise anything to him.....I don’t know what awaits us in the future. However, despite that uncertainty, I said to myself “Isn’t love sincere? Isn’t love unconditional?” I don’t want “but’s” or “what if’s”. I just want to give my best to him and see him happy.

I am ready to love him, but I am also ready to lose him if this love doesn’t belong to us...because I know love needs sacrifice; love isn’t selfish. Through this, I want to learn to love someone with all my heart...

I love him, from the beginning until the end....

I follow the night
can't stand the light
when will I begin my life again?

One day I'll fly away
and leave all these to yesterday

What more can you do for me?
Why live life from dream to dream?
cause when it ends
we're gonna dread it

Still you make your mark
here, in my heart...