Recently it's been so hard to find my own peace. Though I have kept telling myself that what is done, is done, I still hope that, somehow, I can turn back the time. I wish that I could choose whoever stays or leaves in my life. I wish I could have seen what would have happened, so I knew which ways to take.
This isn't good for me, as this agitation itself has probably affected own physical and mental health. Even my mother can say, "Look at you! You look like a mess." I must admit that I have created chaos and now I need to fix it. It may not be as easy as flipping coins, but, at least, now I see that I mustn't be afraid to stop fighting for nothing.
Nothing lasts forever. People may think they haven't changed but, in fact, they have. They don't change by themselves; the situation changes them. I've always hoped that miracle would happen but before it did, I would have been killed out of desperation first. And, definitely, life's a matter of choice. If the other can make an easy decision, I can make it too. And I will.
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